I just realized that I have gone the entire week without letting you know how my 20 year class reunion went last Saturday. I cannot apologize enough for causing you undue worry and stress over the lack of a recap, but I will make it up to you once I win the lottery and fly us all to VEGAS for a week.
Seeing people who basically treated you like crap after your scandal hit the news and wouldn’t have bothered to spit on you if you were on fire might not sound like a big fun time, but when you have recently lost close to 30 pounds (and look DAAAAAAAAAAAMN GOOD) and you have been to jail (and ain’t scared of any bitches) … IT IS!
I was one of the first people to arrive at the park (the first family even of the day), which made it that much more funner (yes, that IS a word), because I got to sit there and watch the reaction on people’s faces when they saw me and could actually see the realization of “oh my gawd, I can’t believe that SHE is here” show on their expressions.
In the off chance that somebody from my class will actually read these, I will refrain from being overly mean, but I will say this to any of them who come across this post:
“You hurt me. You really really hurt me. At the time when I needed friends the most, you gave up on me. Right when my world was falling apart and the thing that I needed most was understanding and somebody to listen, you dropped me. When times got tough for you, I was there. When you were going through rough times, I was there. When you celebrated your victories, I was there. Why couldn’t you have been there for me?”
I know that we can’t go back in time and change things, but I hope that you seeing me at the reunion makes you realize that I am not a monster. I hope that it makes you realize that I am still here and that just because you ignored me, it didn’t make me go away. Most of all, I hope that you realize that I am just fine without you. I have moved on. I have found new friends, ones who became my friends at the worst of my scandal, not ones that ran away because of it. I have found a peace in my life that only my situation could have brought me and even if I could, I wouldn’t change any of it. I have found myself and no matter how cruel you are, no matter what you say about me, no matter how many times you refuse to look me in the eye – you can’t take what I have found away. EVER.
So to you my former friends, I am grateful. You have helped to form me into what I am today … and the person that I am now is FANTABULOUS (too bad that you are missing out on knowing me).”