Definition of BACK BURNER
: the condition of being out of active consideration or development —usually used in the phrase on the back burner
A good friend of mine told me not too long ago that she just knew that this was going to be “my year”. I agreed with her. Things were going well. I had hope. I had plans. I had peace.
That’s gone. Gone so far away that I don’t even see it off in the distance. The conversations that I needed to have with people that might have changed my whole life will have to wait. The wonderful vacation that Derek and I had planned together will have to wait. The feeling that things were finally turning around for us will have to wait.
They have all been replaced with a feeling of dread and sinking. I can feel myself sinking. I can feel Derek sinking. The daughters. The sons. All sinking. I know that it’s the waiting and the fear of the unknown, but the helpless feeling is almost more than we can handle.
We should know more tomorrow ….
… but for now I am mad at the world and I think I might stay this way for a while. It’s easier than having hope. Having hope is exhausting.
Hope has been put on the back burner.
I pray that this day will pass swiftly that you may get to the answers of tomorrow.
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They may not be the answers we want. It’s going to be a really long day.
Hoping and praying that tomorrow will be a much better day.
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We are actually expecting the worst … the report has gone to the DA.
Just wanted to let you know that there is a little corner of Tennessee that is holding onto your hope for you. When you’re ready for it, just let me know. Hugs!!!
Thanks …. keep it safe and happy … you might be holding on to it for a while.
Sometimes we DO need to experience anger. Hang in there girl. I’ll hold out the hope for you.
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Thanks …. hold tight to that hope.
Your good friend should not have jinxed you like that! She should have known better.
Good luck tomorrow, hon!! I’ll be thinking of you and hoping for the best possible outcome for you and your family!
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No kidding …. friend!
Being mad can be empowering, if you can keep it from consuming you (I never quite mastered that art). Sending you good thoughts…
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