I posted about a month ago on how my drinking was starting to scare me and I have been doing sooooooooooo much better. I am recognizing my drinking triggers and have cut waaaaaaaaaaay back. I pretty much only have one or two drinks a week now and I have stopped feeling like I “need” a drink instead of just wanting one.
I know that some people believe that a former alcoholic is always an alcoholic. I don’t believe that. My drinking in the past was a physical craving brought on by Paxil (and is now a documented side effect on the prescription hand-outs at pharmacies) that was compounded by a “don’t give a damn attitude” (also brought on by Paxil).
The drinking issue that I was having lately was brought on by stress and me not finding a healthier way to deal with it.
Anywho … last night I had a drink, Simply Lemonade with Raspberry mixed with Razzmatazz (raspberry flavored liquor). I don’t know if it was the kind of liquor, the fact that I have been cutting back, or something that had nothing to do with the alcohol at all … but I had a horrible night last night.
When I did sleep it was nightmares and when I didn’t sleep it was panic attacks with a side order of the “if only” game and the “what if” game. NOT A FUN NIGHT!
Lesson learned ….. NO MORE RAZZMATAZZ !!!
Why do I feel the sudden urge to display jazz hands?
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Go ahead … as long as you post the video on YouTube.
When I see the word RAZZMATAZZ I think of panty hose and that damn tune that goes with it…………..bugga
I also don’t think if a person has a drinking problem that will have it for life no matter what…………..
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Even when I felt that I was drinking too much, it was NOTHING like how I drank when I was Paxilated. Everything in moderation.