When something bad happens to you and that something bad can be partially attributed to one person, the automatic human response is to want something bad to happen to that person in return. I felt that way for a brief moment when “my mess” first started, until I realized what the real cause was (thank you very much Paxil and Ambien).
Something bad has happend to a very key player in my situation and all I can feel is sadness for that person. I guess that means that I’ve moved on. It might mean that I’ve lived with it for so long that I’m numb to it. I don’t really know.