Without going into graphic detail, I’m not feeling very well. There are physical issues along with my never ending, constant worry. I can’t turn it off.
I need a good cry, a long bath, a good book, a glass (or Mason jar) of wine, and a nap … probably in that order.
As exhausted as I am, I should be sleeping, but I can’t. I can barely keep my eyes open past nine o’clock, wake up two or three times during the night and then am wide awake at five in the morning. Some people would suggest sleeping pills for that and to them I would have to say “OOOOOOOOOOOOOH HEEEEEEEEEEEELL NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!” … been there, done that, got the bat shit craziness to prove it.
I know that being easier on myself would help and not expecting to get everything done right this minute would probably help too. How do I teach myself to give myself a break? (Did that question make any sense at all?)
Being busy seems to help keep my mind off of things, but I need to learn how to be calm without the distractions, because in some ways the distractions are making it worse.
Is life like this for everyone? Does anybody ever feel like they have time to get it all done? Should I give up trying and just eat a gallon of ice cream instead?