As I was waiting for my daughter to get out of dance class last night, I was scrolling through Twitter on my phone and there was a tweet by somebody who said something I assumed to be about me … nothing new over the past few days. I started trying to think of what it could possibly have been that I had done to not make her like me …. and then this strange feeling of calm came over me and I said to myself “why the hell do you even care?”
I’ve actually been thinking about this sort of thing for months. I spend way too much time in a digital world trying to make “stranger/friends”, but wasting my real life. I spend time every day on Twitter, writing on here, on several forums and chatting with people that I have never met (some of whom I will probably stay in contact with, but some … probably not).
I used to be one of those people who said goofy things like “everything happens for a reason”, but I don’t anymore. There are some things that there are just no reasons for, but I do believe that we have a choice as to how we react to certain things.
The past few days have opened my eyes to a lot of things and one of them is the fact that I waste a lot of time on things that really don’t matter …. and that needs to change. I have a lot of work to do in a lot of areas in my life and some exciting projects coming up that could literally change my life … but those things aren’t going to happen on their own.
This is my year of rebuilding relationships and changing my life and I can’t do that by sitting on my ass in front of a computer screen.
I’ll continue to post every once in a while, especially when I have good news, but the days of me posting every detail of my life are probably over.
There are real people in my life whose opinions of me and my relationships with mean so much more than anything I can find online and that’s how it should be. We should all be striving for “real relationships” and stop worrying so damn much about what virtual strangers think.
I appreciate the love and support I’ve received and will always cherish the “stranger/friends” that I’ve made for life.