You build it up in your head. You plan out what you’re going to say. You decide that today’s the day. You make the phone call. You talk to the person. You get an answer and then that calm hits you … that feeling like no other. The feeling that no matter what happens, YOU DID IT !!! You had the conversation. You asked what you needed to ask.
I don’t know what happens from here. I know what I hope and pray to the bottom of my soul happens, but I can’t control more than I can control. So I continue to fight and I continue to be brave and I continue to believe that I have a purpose and dammit I’m going to find it.