I have mental blocks related to my situation. A huge one is my Drivers License. It has really ugly words on it … my label in big, bright red letters right across the front. I hate showing it to people for any reason and I often feel the need to try to explain it so they don’t see me as the monster the label implies. I know it’s stupid. I know know know it’s stupid. Most people are too busy with their lives to even give a shit and I really should only care about the opinions of people who really know me, but that doesn’t make it any easier.
We have savings we worked really hard to build up and sometimes we borrow against it when we want to pay off something or in this case pay taxes (BOO!). I called the bank yesterday and our friendly loan officer helped me with everything. Well … they can’t send me the loan documents for my signature until I send them a new copy of my Drivers License. I have to have mine renewed every year (another lovely rule I live with), so the one they have on file is out of date.
I tried to come up with any way to get out of it. D even suggested we just borrow against our savings account at another bank and see if they will need a new copy of my DL. He’s so sweet.
I just need to scan it and send it. I need to get over the block of assuming that people even care. I need to not feel the need to explain myself … but I can’t help it.Slappy aka Gina aka Bitchy McSlappywine