As pieces of my memory slowly began to emerge, I would have sort of flashback moments remembering my craziness. Times when I acted out of control or said really hurtful things to people, just to feel better about myself (the very definition of a bully). I know my full memory will probably never return. It's… Continue reading The Old Me
According to Merriam-Webster a Mantra is "a mystical formula of invocation or incantation". I think I use the word more loosely .... I'm sure not invoking anything (unless some crazy spirit wants to bring me boxed wine and make me a corn dog) ... it's just one of my reminders to live in the present,… Continue reading One of My Many Mantras
Some people have great success with antidepressants and if that's you then that's awesome. I was not one of those people. Ten years ago today I became Paxil free. In some ways it seems like just yesterday, in others a lifetime ago. It was a lifetime ago. I'm no longer that person. I see it… Continue reading Ten Years Ago I Tapered Off Antidepressants
He used to stand by the front door and wait ... and wait ... and wait. I don't have actual OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). I have OCD Tendencies, which is a nicer way to say OCD mild. I used to have the type that kept me from leaving the house. The kind that caused my… Continue reading OCD Tendencies … My Rechecking Annoys Me Too
I subscribe to a lot of magazines and each month I see at least one article about or by a celebrity where they say something ridiculous like "I choose to be happy" or "happiness is a choice I make every day". Oh what a wonderful world that would be if it were true. Sure I… Continue reading Can you choose to be happy?