As pieces of my memory slowly began to emerge, I would have sort of flashback moments remembering my craziness. Times when I acted out of control or said really hurtful things to people, just to feel better about myself (the very definition of a bully). I know my full memory will probably never return. It's… Continue reading The Old Me
Situational Depression can occur after any sort of loss, but it can also show up AFTER a good thing happens. I'm going through it to some degree now. For months we planned a "we need to run away from home before we start kicking people" vacation. Every day I would spend my breaks at work looking at… Continue reading Post Vacation Depression
We all have suffered and will suffer loss of some kind during our lives. We lose relationships, jobs we love, people we love, our homes, our belongings, our routines, etc. It's a horrible feeling and sometimes we don't know what we're feeling or what to do for ourselves until the feeling passes. Situational Depression (also called… Continue reading Living with Situational Depression
Some people have great success with antidepressants and if that's you then that's awesome. I was not one of those people. Ten years ago today I became Paxil free. In some ways it seems like just yesterday, in others a lifetime ago. It was a lifetime ago. I'm no longer that person. I see it… Continue reading Ten Years Ago I Tapered Off Antidepressants
I subscribe to a lot of magazines and each month I see at least one article about or by a celebrity where they say something ridiculous like "I choose to be happy" or "happiness is a choice I make every day". Oh what a wonderful world that would be if it were true. Sure I… Continue reading Can you choose to be happy?