Hold on to your hats my friends, this might get a little sappy.
I’ve been thinking a lot about beginnings and endings lately. How life has a way of telling you when things need to stop and new things need to start.
I know people who are struggling with endings right now. They can’t imagine a life without that job, that relationship or that path. They can’t see past the pain of right now. God (or the universe or the magical unicorns – whatever you believe) has closed a door on something they planned for and dreamed of and they can’t fathom a different kind of life.
They’re playing the “if only” game … a game that NOBODY EVER WINS! If only I had been nicer, smarter, faster, taller, etc. If only I had said this or done that. If only I had made a different choice.
I played that game for years and guess where it got me. Yup … nowhere.
No matter how much you worry about changing the past, it doesn’t change.
You have to be where you are right now.
If something has happened that’s turned your life upside down and you can’t imagine moving past it, I’m here to tell you that there is another door. Stop trying to pry open the closed one.
I’m at a good place in my life right now and I’ve come a long way from a not so good place.
The door of my other life slammed shut in the form of a jail cell. The door on a craziness that only people around me who witnessed it could possibly understand. The door on a broken marriage. The door on being a violent person. The door on a selfish, egotistical maniac who didn’t give a shit about anyone but herself. The door on thoughts of hurting others and myself. The door on black outs and drunken rants.
The door on a life I thought was just fine, but was actually an opening to a house that was burning down around me.
I didn’t make the decision for my life to fall apart. That decision was made for me and it’s been one of the biggest blessings in my life. It saved my life.
I vividly remember laying on that mat under that scratchy blanket, part in shock as to how I got there, but also knowing that this was not the real me. I made the decision to recognize it as a chance to change.
I’m so thankful for that closed door.
God may have closed a door in your life, but He will give you another one. I promise. Don’t make drastic decisions. Don’t second guess choices that can’t be changed. Don’t look for answers that you may never find. Just be open to the idea of open doors and they will show themselves.
I’ve found them everywhere.
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